Me lately: 5 Loves and a life decision.
Hey you guys, I hope you're still there.I haven't posted nearly as much as I've been wanting to lately. The explanation is simple:
My work in the past three weeks has been the most stress I've ever had to undergo. Makes all my previous postings seem almost chilled in comparison. I have lost weight, my clothes don't fit, my skin is rebelling and I don't even care.
I've been in the newborn ward and the babies... they are draining my body of everything I didn't even know I had. For two years now I've been trying to decide whether to specialise in Paeds (kids) or psychiatry. A really major life choice for me.
Life Decision
These three weeks have smeared black paint all over paeds in my mind.
The babies are cute, and when they respond to treatment and do well, JOY! Worth the stress without question.
On the other hand, when they die it is heartbreaking. Breaking the news to the parents, especially the mum is the worst thing ever.
Another factor in this decision is the amount of work. As a student I didn't spend much time in the newborn ward; many people trooping in is not the best for them; so I didn't know how much work was involved.
The babies are so fragile, the ones born premature especially, so you cannot leave anything until the next day even if you think you might faint...then you start all over again the day after. Having to do this indefinitely during residency is a pill I cannot swallow.
So yeah, I will not be a Paediatrician.
That felt final. Sad, but I'm at peace with it. I haven't talked this much about work on this space ever...
On a much much lighter note, the actual post I planned- my 5 loves. Some are new, others not so much. Nappyhaired did hers and reminded me it's been a while.
NGND Hearts:
1. Taylor Swift's Wildest Dreams
If someone had told me even last year that I would be rocking out to Taylor Swift's music, hard girl like me, I would have laughed and belched in their face. But here I am, hot on the heels of my love for Blank Space, loving and screaming along to Wildest Dreams. Who woulda thunk it? I'm definitely wide open to anything this girl does from now on.
2. Flats
Comfort has taken over these days. I'm losing my talent and skill with heels. Yes o, say nothing. Please don't tell my mum.
And ooh, I filled out a questionnaire months ago that I had even forgotten about, only to get an email that I had won a pair of Thandos shoes for it. Who no like awuf? Can't wait to get mine. They're @teamthandos on Ig.
3. Minions
Kai, they are the cutest, funniest, most adorable creatures ever. Bunnies, kittens and puppies please step. I've loved them since Despicable Me 1, and ever since part 2 there's been a minion-shaped hole in my life, I want one so bad! Too bad they're fictional. I have a track record sha, I pined hard for Piglet from Winnie the Pooh back in the day...
4. Porsch stores
New fashion retailer set to launch in Nigeria. I was contacted by them, saw the pictures and I was really impressed. Like, I WANT. I'll put up a post on this in a minute.
5. Plain yoghurt
Why have I not ever had unsweetened yoghurt before now??
I got a 750ml bowl from Spar for N350 (that's like $1.70 these days right? Sheesh) and Dios mio, it is amaaazing with fresh fruit. I slice into a bowl and top with spoons of the cold creamy yoghurt. Yum! I was surprised how well it went with pawpaw. I'm on my second bowl, just had it with bananas tonight.
So what's going on with you lately? Big, little? What are you loving? You know I love when you talk to me.
Xx,
NGND
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